I've got one week before i leave my life for 2 years. I leave friends, family, and my music behind to serve the greater good. I'm not nervous although i should be. It's a very odd feeling, i mean, I've been more nervous about things that won't affect my life half as much as this journey. And even though I'm only moving a few hundred miles from home, it'll seem like much further because I hope to be working constantly (Not to distance myself from my former life, but because it's the entire reason I'm out there)
Anyways, for anyone who cares, this shall probably be my last blog entry for 2 years. Farewell friends.

So what if my reality is self-created? It's what gets me from day to day. I don't fear death.

Today was slightly disappointing, but i worked up the courage to tell the girl that was on my mind that i liked her, and she took it very well! :) so i'm in a slightly better mood now

I am the worst kind of tired. I don't want to sleep, i don't want to be awake, i don't want to go out, i don't want to stay in. I could use some caffeine right about now, but i don't have money and the nearest place that would even sell me caffeine is a mile away!!! So here's the real problem...I've been thinking about a person quite alot for the past couple of days. I'll admit that it's a girl, but that's about all other than the fact that i find her insanely attractive and when she smiles I can't help but smile also. I get to see her most days, but she doesn't know that i feel the way i do. I'd ask her out, but i'm leaving for Washington in 21 days and that doesn't seem like a nice thing to do, "hey wanna go out for three weeks and then i'm gonna leave for 2 years, and i'd like you to wait for me if you don't mind" yeah.....doesn't work. I wish she would tell me that she felt the same way, she invades my dreams, she constantly breaks into my sub-conscience when i least expect it... and i love every damn second of it.

Suggestions for being in a Band pt. 1

Here's just a couple off the top of my head
1. If you don't like something the band is doing, tell them!!
*also, if you don't like something that a specific member of the band is doing, tell them. ex, Dave Mustaine and Metallica, it worked out for everybody.
2. If you write something you think is AWESOME, say "I think this is awesome and it should be in a song."
*If they don't agree, either go solo, or find people who support your musical interests.
3. Encourage everybody to write music for the band, that way no one feels left out.
4. Over the course of a band career, learn EVERY instrument you can get your hands on.
5. 1 genre gets boring after a certain amount of time, spice things up once in a while.

So it's been a while....and i still have nothing of any importance to say